An exhausted Joost van der Westhuizen appeared on Coenie de Villiers's show 'Kwęla' on kykNET on Wednesday night in a tell-all interview

"I have fallen hard," said the former Springbok star.

It was Van der Westhuizen's first television interview since admitting that he had appeared in a sex video which made headlines in February.

The video showed him snorting a white powder and engaging in sexual activities with a woman who was later revealed to be a former stripper. He had repeatedly denied that he was the man in the video, and insisted he had been framed.

Van der Westhuizen, who is married to local celebrity Amor Vittone, came clean on Sunday, saying that he was tired of "living a lie".

"It was a very tough week, but it was my own fault. It is a battle I have to fight with myself and I will make it through," he said on 'Kwęla'.

Van der Westhuizen said he was was appearing on the live show "in shame" and said he felt "humiliated".

"I apologise for what I did to that woman and to the people. I wrote this book for my two children. I can't expect my two children to be honest with me if I'm not honest with them and their mother."

The book is dedicated simply to his children, Kylie and Jordan.

"It is the story of a rugby player — my story — who became so famous that you later lead a false life. Now it is the life lesson of a guy who stepped down from his throne because he lived a lie."

Van der Westhuizen said: "I ask for forgiveness and apologise here on Kwęla. The things of which I am now accused, are my private life.

"This is what I have to sort out with my wife and my children and my Lord."

He also insisted he was not playing the "religion card".

"This is my life and I lived it wrongly. I want to fix that.

"I am human. I made mistakes. I was caught out. Now I have to fix things. There is only one way and that is the truth. My message is simple: Don't live a lie."

His voice grew hoarse and Van der Westhuizen appeared emotional when he spoke about his wife.

"She is an incredible person. I ask myself: How could you have done it, Joost? I have fallen hard."

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